I just wrote a long blog...and it vanished.
im angry.....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...that angry!
Goodnight.
Emma x

I want to say sorry for the weak effort of a blog i produced last night.  I just didnt have the energy to even think let alone type.

My ear still feels bad although i have nearly doubled the amount of pain killers i should be taking.  I am sat on the internet with just my robe on adn dont even feel the need to go to work.  As we speak my Mum is downstairs feeding and dressing my daughter and I just want to go back to bed.  Macey will be ready in about 4 minutes and im not even washed or dressed.  Im expecting a talking to from my Mum.  I think the reason why I dont want to go to work is becasue I know its going to suck.  My life sucks at the moment.  I feel like a Sim from the computer game.  I dont have time to use the toilet any more.  Just home from work and then fall asleep why trying to make some food.  Then wake up ful of life and a random time like 4:26.  What is the best thing to do at that time?  No one decent is awake at that time.  Should I get up and get dressed and sit and wait til its time for work?  Should i go back to sleep?  Should i go on the internet and see what freaks are lucking on my MSN?  I went back to sleep...and when my alarm went off at 7:00 am i woke up feeling like shit.  It sucks the whole lot of it.  At least I know Jez is ok.  As for Rachel...thats a whole new blog in itself.  Things with me and C seem to be sorted out now.  That is a weight off my shoulders.  I just heard my Mum say to Macey "I wonder where your Mummy is"...Ill give her 5 mins before she comes up here and pulls me away from the screen.  I am ment to be going to "Bingol" (Bingo for normal people) tonight but as my Sims lifestyle kicks in I would be worries I may fall asleep as the Caller is shouting number out.  My ear hurts I just wanna curl up and die today.  There goes my mum "What the hell are you doing up there???", I replied "Ikm just coming now"...whick of course is bollocks.  I am out of Saturday night...if no-one else drops out. H isnt coming cos of the house thing and the saving up.  We'll see what happens on Saturday I guess.  I have yet to write a blog while under the influence...would be a laugh i think. I best go get a quick shower and dressed in lighting quick time or my mum will chop my head off.

Seeya all...

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Cheers,

Emma x

My day has been so poo is sucks.  My ear hurts.  Going to bed.  G'night all.

Emma x 

Um...um...WAS SHITE.  Work was boring...got quite a bit of stuff done though.  You know what its like when you have alot of crap on your desk and you just never seem to get it moved...today i seemed to manage.  Hope we get the intake stuff sorted out tomorrow.  All the managers are seem to decide amoungst themselves instead of asking the people who really know whats going on...me and Nicola! 
The last 2 Losts' are on now...but it seems boring.  Im not in a concentrating mood at the moment.  Ive got an ear infection and i feel like shit If its not gone by monday im gonna go back to the docs and tell them to chop my ear off.  It really does hurt that  much.  I feel sick everytime i stick a pen in it to itch it cos of the pain.  Macey is snoring.  She looks cute when she is sleeping.  Its ashame that she isnt so cute when she is awake.  I still cant believe something so georgeous (SP?) can be the product of dog me and rat her dad!  I aint brushed my teeth yet.  I feel minging.  My tea was well nice...last nights warmed up left overs stew.  It tastes better for some reason the day after.  Ive got a mission on dinner tomorrow.  Blank Discs, Internet cables, Sim for Jez and go to Venture photographers to stop them fucking calling me 5 times a day.  Will just tell them that i am not interested in getting my pictures done and LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.  I wonder how long Erica is off work?  Ill miss everything going on on Team 2 if shbe aint in.  I might go to sit back in my old seat tomorrow...just to keep an eye on things. Jez is miles away and I miss him.  Its funny how i seem to miss him more now than I did when he was all the way in France.  I dont know when ill next get to see him.  Might even be all the way til Christmas.  God that is a long time.  i should look and see at train times and shit but I just dont have the energy.  I wonder what clothes are clean for me to wear tomorrow.  If not ill just get the day off work.  Good plan Eh?  I wonder who will be out on Saturday.  I bet chrissy dont come out...and Simon wont...boring bastard.  Right then...I might go to sleep now.  Remind myself to mail Will tomorrow.  Remind myself to find ,my bluetooth dongle tomorrow.

Postbags folks

Emma x

Like: picking spots
Do like: the state of my room
Feelings: illish and tiredness
Lovin': that its halfway into the week
Hatin': Jez being 1234568798234549659 miles away